and for once, it's reality.

Family, a couple of arguments every now and then, no big deal.

Friends, Why do I sense a bit of tension? I can feel myself slowly drifting away... I need a little downtime with the girls.

School, exams. I know I should be pushing myself further, but the motivation isn't there. This sucks.

Love, oh what a story to go along with that.

amazing (adj.)
1.inspiring awe or admiration or wonder

I must say, 'amazing' would probably be one of the words that has been used the most in some of my conversations. Even though I may have used it numerous times, it hasn't ceased to lose its meaning.
What is beyond amazing? My vocabulary only contains so many words, that I can't find a word greater than amazing, but I just need it these days.
Everything is so wonderful, and amazes me, and I'm seeing so many different things in a whole new perspective.
Who ever knew I could feel this way... It was so out of the blue. I thought all hope was gone, and there he came in my life when I needed someone to talk to.
Did I know it was going to unravel into this? No.
I struggle to find words to describe this phenomenal boy, he just completes me. So many times, I've poured out my emotions in tears, because I thought there was the slightest chance of losing him. But with his reassurance, I wipe it all away, and soon enough, a smile emerges on my face.
I'm truly hoping that this isn't all a dream, that will vanish when I wake up. But no, it's reality. It's all so surreal.

On the contrary

Why yes. I had to Google up what "contrary" meant.

Here it is. The big day.

"How does it feel to be 15?" "Are you excited?" "What are you doing for the big day?"

The answer is: No different than the last day of being 14, no, and nothing. Well.. ice cream cake with the gal pals!

I guess my fantasy plan for my birthday was to make it a birthday weekend fest bonanza... well, I guess that didn't happen, because here I am, at home writing on my Blog.

The feeling when it all just comes naturally, when your hopes are too high for you to even be cautious anymore... I've been living the dream.

But then comes the after part, when it all starts crumbling down, you lose the hope.. and the fearlessness you once had, is gone.

I just let myself go (and I'm not even talking weight-wise), I jumped into the waters after hesitating for the longest time, but now I'm drowning.

I should've known before I set myself up for disappointment.

Have a wonderful birthday Hanna Reyes.

Cause when you're fifteen...

Exactly one more week til I turn 15!
And since I had posted a Christmas Wish List, I will make a birthday wish list.

Here it goes...

1. Adidas/Bench/TNA Sweater













2. Lululemon Pants







3. Snuggie!









4. Talula or Red Olympic Mitts









5. iPod Speakers





















6. Starbucks Gift Card
















7. Jewelery [long necklaces & earrings preferably]
















8. MONEY!
















9. Belts
















10. Camera