risk worth taking?

"You've got to risk love. I didn't.. and look at me. I'm a lonely ghost of a man. It doesn't mean that you're never going to get hurt but the pain you feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love." - Ghost of Girlfriend's Past

hola

Redemption feels amazing, no?

too nice

One side is tugging at my right hand, and another side is tugging at my left hand. Yet, I am still standing my ground.
Sometimes, you are told to try to find a bright side in the darkest of times. That is exactly what I'm trying to do. But, me being the little girl who is easily influenced, I am being pushed back into the darkness. I must admit, some of the things that they said were true.

Should I stay or should I go?

I'm not perfect

Falling a thousand feet per second
You still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over
I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence
Takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over
And never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall
Even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my personality?

random thoughts

this is my " I miss you so much" face

'Mood: Happy' is in tomorrow's horoscope. What? How is that possible? I'm far from happy. How can I make such a huge transition in such a short time?

Highlights of the day:

• Acing the unit test for Math that was uncalled and unstudied for
• The Black History Month assembly that shortened all the periods
• Have the song, 'You Can't Hurry Love' stuck in my head for most of the day
• Gym class where I slacked and learned a new way to do the jumping jacks
• Listening to the depressing play list on my iPod for countless hours

Low lights of the day:

• Missing you
• Uncomfortable Silence
• More silence that I can probably tolerate for a couple more days
• Everything else

I feel the need to purchase a notebook so I can have some personal entries too, instead of exposing my life on blogspot.

Oh yeah, I'm hoping for the best, but expecting the worst. More of the latter one.

this is my " I'm getting so frustrated" face

compromise

Never do you want to hear about someone complaining, "it's all my fault, it's always me causing the problems, I am such a screw up", because you know that they are blowing the situation way out of proportion and they need to get a reality check.

I feel as if I have the need to express that, but of course in a more realistic way.

I can admit that I don't have the best ability to express how I feel, and most of the time I can decode how I'm feeling through another person's interpretation. But, I know for sure right now, I feel that when I have any sort of relationship with anybody, it's me making a majority of the mistakes. I don't like it. Of course, it's difficult for me to back myself up, since I am verbally impaired and deep down inside, I know that I've made a mistake. I'd just be making false statements so I don't make a fool of myself. I guess either way, I still make a fool of myself.

We all learn from mistakes, right? I'm still learning...

The Only Exception

Slowly falling in love with this song... The video's pretty cute too.